I care.
Seven years later, I have more joy & peace than ever. If u r strong enough 2 bear the pain, you're strong enough 2 let it go. U can b free.
I remember the peace I felt when he left because the pain of losing him was less than the pain of staying with him. I could breathe-live.
I decided one day that even if my life didn't get any better, I couldn't let it get worse from staying with him. I was ready 2 leave.
I remember the day I woke up and realized that this had 2 end. God wasn't going to send a neon sign. He wanted me 2 observe & 2 decide.
I remember having to talk to my friends in secret, knowing I'd catch hell if he found out I disobeyed him. He was like a 2nd angry dad.
I remember the time I accepted pain & dysfunction as realities in my life. Unchallenged. Undisputed. Settled for.
I kno what it's like 2 have friends & fam do all they can 2 say you're worth more than this. And I remember not believing a word they said.
I know what it feels like to think it would be easier to die than to live without him. I remember the day the Truth pierced thru that lie!
I know what it feels like to wake up in despair, thinking "this is the best there is. He's all I have or ever can have".
I know wat it feels like to hear insult after insult, put down after put down daily. Know how scary "leaving" feels & nt just fear of safety
Although I was never physically beaten, I kno what it feels like 2 sit n my car & not want 2 enter my own home 4 fear of drama. There's HOPE
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